This was me after my first CBT assessment session, whilst Arthur and Jord were having trampoline fun.
It’s hard to know when just feeling generally down starts and depression ends. Everybody feels down, I’m sure. I don’t believe everybody is happy all the time. So when your in the fog of PND you think, is this just life, or is it more?
Is today just a rubbish day or am I feeling lower than I should?
The professional said something to me that of course is so simple; we all feel sad sometimes. Of course I know that but sometimes I forget. Like if I feel down, am I not coping, or if I feel down I’m going to have to go back into hospital, always the worst case scenario.
But it’s ok to feel down. So after my CBT session I still felt down, because I have PND and life is hard. And everybody feels down sometimes.
I was sad to miss Arthur having fun at the trampoline park but I know I’m taking a step in the right direction. .
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So here we are. I’m going to try and get back into writing and blogging, writing helps and we all need our own stuff and things that help us. .
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I won’t pretend I haven’t felt like I’ve been feeling my best recently.
After decreasing my antidepressants I felt like I took a few steps back.
I think we’re still trying to figure where we belong and where we’re meant to be.
I love Bristol but I miss my family. I love the island but I want to do more in my career than I think it can give me.
In turn, I’ve felt quite alone, low in mood and quite anxious.
So I went to my GP and I’m going to try some CBT.
Straight away I felt a sense of relief. A step in the right direction.
My mental health is a journey. Something I think will have many ups and downs, twists and turns.
But how I feel now is still a world away from that very dark place I was in when I first became unwell.
I was thinking how far I’ve come the other day, how hard we are on ourselves and how often we focus on what we haven’t done instead of what we have done.
Well, in just over a year I’ve given birth to another human. (Women’s bodies are amazing)
I’ve developed PND and anxiety and am now in my recovery journey.
And I’ve raised a mini dude who is literally the light of my life.
So, I’m proud of what I’ve done.
I hope we can all find something we’re proud of ourselves for today. However big or small. ❤️ .
So as for us I’m still trying to figure everything out. But I’m glad I went to my GP. And no matter happens in life I always have this little dude, Arth never change, you wonderful human you. ❤️ .
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